What a lazy day today: slept in late, ate an egg sandwich, watched a movie of my favorite childhood novel The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe and went to see The Town at the $1.50 theatre. Whew, I am amazed at how lazy I was! At least I ended my night fairly productive listened to a sermon by Mark Driscoll and worked on my tunes.
Sitting alone in my apartment all day was taxing for me. I didn't anticipate the immediate onset of loneliness but it sure enough found me out quickly. It was just shortly after 3 it was gloomy outside and the thought ran through my head about how alone I was. Thinking about it now I am appalled at myself, I had not been in Raleigh for 24 hours yet! Its amazing how quickly we lose sight of the truth of our own situation. We look for opportunities to throw pity-parties for ourselves and put ourselves down. Oh how I wish we wouldn't it makes life so much more depressing than it need be. This blatantly shows our doubt in God's sovereignty over our lives let alone his presence in our lives. It wasn't until later in the evening that I realized I was letting my mind wander and start to place my source for hope and joy on things that would not last at all. It is true that we are comunal beings and we need community with other people but we cannot let that be our solution for things. I am a broken record, a band that plays one song: we need more of Jesus.
I am getting excited about my songs that I am writing. Especially ones that I have already written on guitar but not written percussion parts for. I am so excited to be able to share these songs soon (with anyone who would listen). I am most excited about playing these songs live, I have acquired two "surprises" that I will be performing with live whenever I can get up enough songs to play comfortably. But seriously this makes any day better.
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