prayer for strength and peace.

I know that you are with me always but I really need you now. James says those that draw near to you, you in turn draw near to them. I've always thought that I needed to call out your name so you would come to me when your word clearly says I am to come to you. This is the inverse of the way I think, let it no longer be so. Allow me the grace that James wrote about just beforehand, that I might have the strength to pierce the veil that I seem to think is still there. You stand before me pointing to the rent curtain saying, "Come." In the same light of your words rushing upon my face I am also told "Go." You say "go but never leave." I am to go into the world around me doing the work that I must for a man will eat his bread from the sweat of his brow, yes we still are under the curse and man is still held accountable for holding the title of provider. Today I am teaching, not about you scriptures your holy words in pen, about bridges. I wish to do so not from the love of the material or a desire to be looked upon as knowledgeable but as son imitates his father I hope to imitate Christ, glorifying you God in all that I do. Even now as I sit waiting anxious I still pray. I whisper "strength" and "peace" and the familiar " be still" under my breath as I await the wave of anxiety to pass over me and leave me for now I am meeting open seas. A breath more till the waves crest. Today I go not on my own accord Father, you have lead me here.